Nine of Pentacles
For a long time, I've had some anxiety about my finances. In college I often avoided ordering food or drinks out for fear of draining my bank account. In AmeriCorps, I lived off my savings and about $3/hr. When we would go out to Provincetown, I would stuff nippers in my coat to avoid buying drinks at bars and shoot them down when the bouncers weren't paying attention. If it weren't for the kindness of my mother and her helping me with my finances, I would be so screwed right now. Now I have a job. It's weird. After almost 6 years of searching for jobs, I finally land a full time one. Sure it's not a job I really want or enjoy, but I'm actually earning something that feels like a paycheck instead of an allowance. I mean, my first paycheck went straight to rent and utilities, but still. The Nine of Pentacles is just that: financial independence and abundance. This elegant woman near a garden fence, brandishing a large falcon, re...