Another Week, Another Bout of Imposter Syndrome




 I feel like I'm starting to have a better grasp of what I need to do for these classes. I have to do a paper as my final on an archetype and I'm starting to question if doing Heroes and the Hero's Journey was a good idea. Might have my work cut out for me (I still don't understand that saying. I only recently learned it means the opposite of what I thought ¯\_(ツ)_/¯). I still, however, feel unproductive. I'm getting my work done, going to my job, and doing chores regularly, but I feel like I'm still not doing enough to accomplish my goals. I did have some inspiration for Elditone based off my class. I'm writing a mythology book to go with the game's lore about the gods (making it written from the perspective of an archeologist so some things might be wrong or incomplete and some things might be lies the gods made). 


I keep talking about how I need to draw but it's difficult to sit down and just do it and when I do, either I draw a blank or something goes wrong. The other day, I was all set to do my drawing stream (I've been neglecting them), however my tablet struggled to stay connected and my drawing program refused to open and once clicked on, made my other programs fail to open as well. I suppose it's time to uninstall the free Fire Alpaca and buy the higher end Steam version. $40 is a lot though......


In other news: Marcy (my cat; pictured above) is adapting really well to the new environment and was even fine with me moving her litter into Harper's (my girlfriend's cat) domain. Harper, however is still pretty unhappy. She hisses at Marcy whenever they're in the same room. Marcy doesn't give a damn about Harper's aggression. She tests her boundaries often. Harper will swat if Marcy gets too close and only once have they actually fought (Harper isn't confrontational). But that fight was because Marcy tried to beat me downstairs and upon turning the corner out the bedroom door, ran directly into Harper. Marcy won that tussle, which might be a good thing, making Harper realize she has no choice but to share the domain. She has been letting Marcy get closer since then.


I have to thank my friend Corey this week too. My games updates were refusing do download right before a stream and I was starting to have a mental breakdown when Corey came on and we were able to play a game that he managed the files for. 


I have new Tarot cards I have been having fun with....that's about it for this week. Send me confidence and drive to draw <3.


~wizoko

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  1. KimSeptember 20, 2021 at 6:29 AM

    Sending you confidence to draw. I think once you begin you will quickly get lost in it. So what do you have to write about for ‘ The Hero’s Journey’? One specific hero or the basic theme of all hero stories?

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