So Many Things, So Little Brain Power

 When there's big change on the horizon, many things seem to change at once, not always things you want. 

I finally got around to contacting a broker and, subsequently, a real-estate agent. We are starting the long stressful process of finding a house. I'm a little concerned that I have yet to get a real job of any kind and thus have no idea where exactly to look for a house. I have a range, based off my other and my current job which I now can't quit until I either get a better job or a house. Though my other is considering taking a position at a different campus, so that might limit our range to a certain area. 

It's even more unfortunate that I'm backed into a job corner because my boss decided to expand into food. We've had basic pastries that he would buy from Big Y and resell (not sure if that's entirely legal), but he now wants me to be a sandwich artisan. I avoided regular food service thus far. Food service workers are treated like shit and have a lot of work to do. I won't be getting paid more for it either. I'm incredibly curmudgeon about it. My boss says that's what's gonna save the business, but that's bull. Selling just coffee was somewhat successful. Successful enough to open 2 extra locations and to sell in stores. He comes up with these ideas to "save" the business, when all he needs to do is actually fucking advertise. I thought up just setting up part of the roastery to be a bakery and hire a baker to make some pastries in the morning, deliver them to the locations and go home. It would be a cool selling point and would be less work on the already underpaid workers. I told him I wasn't entirely down for the idea and he just acts like a sarcastic ass. He has no idea what he's doing and his pride will probably be his hubris.

I had an interview for a pot farm up in Mass, but they never got back to me. I applied to a few other jobs. Note to anyone who applies for jobs: If any job says "urgently hiring" that's probably bull. The job hunt is a soul draining endeavor and you'd probably be better off using that time to find a skill that you can market yourself. I can fly drones, but I can't afford one. My parents offered to pay for one but $2k is a lot to ask of people who already pay a lot for you. I am grateful for them, but I feel like I take too much from them sometimes. 

Onto the things related to the reason I made this blog: my game making journey. I finished my first class. It was more difficult than I expected. When you hear "mythology class" you think, 'reading mythos and writing about it' not 'go deep into the philosophies surrounding mythos and dissecting the base products to find connections between every and all myths.' I mean, maybe you think that, but I thought the former. I think I'm finishing with an A- which, for a solid B-C person, that's a pretty strong start. I start my next class tomorrow and I hope my book comes in soon. I think it's expected to arrive the 29th, but I'll hafta double check. 

I've been feeling more of a pull to make things. To draw, write or design. But between my mind being overwhelmed with ideas and unfinished projects and being constantly tired, I get home and proceed to do the bare minimum and then playing games. I keep trying to do better, but that last little push is so freaking hard. The fact I finally pushed myself to contact the broker is a miracle. 

My laptop stopped working correctly. I updated the GPU's and now they remain in a constant state of disconnected. I can't open games on it and it's running much slower. I've tried everything short of taking it apart. I even did a minor factory reset. My desktop isn't fairing too much better. I decided that streaming a go-to MMO would be nice and would maybe establish a fun base of people who would watch and converse with me. Unfortunately the MMO I chose because my friends were playing (New World), will not stream faster than >1 frame/second. So I'm at a bit of a loss as to what to even stream now. Maybe go back to Metroid Prime, but the Elgato device slows everything down. I also feel like I need to stream more. Like if I'm playing anything on my PC, I should stream it, but as seen from New World, that might not be possible.

The cats are still not friends. Harper now has her domain behind the couch. We moved her food and litter back there. It's given her more confidence. She'll now leave the back and follow us around a bit. She's become really protective of the small area. If Marcy so much as sticks her head into the area looking for food, Harper will attack. But Harper is allowing Marcy to get closer to her before hissing so I guess that's improvement.

I should at least make a point to make a sketch once a week to put into my blog posts here. It's not as much drawing as I should do but at least it's something. I'm still failing miserably with my video blog but this seems to get my thoughts out. Plus it's not like anyone tunes into my blog stream to chat. Maybe in time 

~wizoko