Two of Cups



I've been doing a poor job at keeping up with my blog and a poor job at starting my YouTube back up. My most recent class requires more time than my other classes. Also Elden Ring took up a lot of my time. That's not to say I haven't been working on some preliminary stuff. 

My April card was the Two of Cups. This card is pretty straightforward: Denotes a connection between two people. Usually romantic, but not necessarily. In all honesty, I hope the latter. I mean I am already engaged with a wonderful woman and I don't really expect that to change. I hope to have the connection with someone who might compliment my creative side and push me to actually get projects done instead of sitting down, staring at a blank screen trying to actually start something. 

I have written most of a script for a potential video about Kirby lore and I am working on making a cartoony avatar of myself to make videos akin to Saberspark, EgoRaptor or even Terminal Montage. I'm just hung up on trying to figure out how animation works. Like do I record the voice first? How do I animate in drawing programs? How do I match up the framerates? I'm sure there's videos or something online that I can find. Like everything, It's just a matter of me actually doing it. 

As my job hunt continues, I feel an ever sense of dread begin to consume me. The current job and social-political climates don't favor ones like myself. Aside from the abysmal starting pay most of these companies offer, I would miss the time I have to do things that would improve my quality of life. My fiancé's sister finally moved out and I started cleaning hardcore. It's a project that would be too daunting were I in an office five days out of the week. I like the comfort of doing work at home at my own pace, even though my pace some days is nonexistent. I could go on a tirade about how work society is toxic to those with neurodivergent "issues" and how society is not designed around basic human functions and instead based around a system developed in the Industrial Revolution, however I'm sure it's something most people have heard. 

Now I know what you're thinking: did you start therapy? No, I haven't. I still can't decide which one I want to contact. More updates on that later..........probably.

~wizoko

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