Ten of Cups


    

    The Ten of Cups is one of the more straightforward cards. It indicates positive familial relationships. Usually romantic, however not necessarily. There has been growing pressure on myself and my fiancé for a lot of things. Mostly career related. 
       
    I, as you may know, feel stuck in a field I no longer have passion for and cannot get a job in anyway. Many in my life believe my ever declining mental state is because I can't get a job. My father being one who believes this. I disagree. It would be one thing to not be able to get a job, but to not get a job doing what I don't even want to do, all the while feeling as though I failed myself in obtaining the skills in what I actually desire is something else altogether. I have reached out and will begin therapy next week. Hopefully I get the strength and knowhow to overcome my crippling executive dysfunction. 

    My fiancé (not to go into too much detail) feels stuck in a job that doesn't appreciate or respect her; treating her as though she's a child or new employee when she has been there for a while now. All this amplified by her more people pleasing nature attempting to keep with the desires of her mother who keeps going on about how good of a job it is. "Benefits are king" the woman repeats to me when I shit talk my fiancé's job. Strongly tied to her outdated ideals of catering to a company. This same woman who worked at the same company (different locations) and in the same job as her daughter for about 50 years only to be conspired against and fired so they wouldn't have to pay her retirement. Absolutely baffling to me how she still defends such a place. My fiancé wants to do more creative things too. She's working towards her goals and I hope she achieves them.

    This card is accurate for our time right now: both downtrodden with the expectations for the world around us, however we have each other and continue to support the other in our endeavors. 

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